Hello all..

It's been awhile...this year is going to the end.. for about a year already i haven't write anything on this blog.. haha maybe i keep on wondering and dreaming what i want to write until at one point...it ends with nothing..i've been through so many things in life for this passed 3 years (after i've officially graduated).. the struggle, the pain, the happy moments, so and so..

Maybe some of you are wondering.. how's my life going on right?... ohh well, time passed by..tutup mata buka mata...it's already 27 years im in this world.. And i really thank God for still giving me the opportunity to see and feel His wonderful creation. And i thank God for He never stop giving me His marvelous blessings in my life..though sometimes life is not that easy to go through..but still He is always there for me.

Lets go a bit deeper about my life journey..

FAMILY : Praise God for now we are still together... my only and youngest sister tetet...just finished her diploma in Uitm..with good result..Next year on month of May will be her convocation day. While my 2nd brother mimik just graduated last month. My 1st brother adie is now working in a private company and my mum is still healthy like before (thank you Lord!).

FRIENDS : I've met and know so many beautiful creation of God which i called them friends. And yet ada yang datang dan pergi..and some of them still here with me..and there are some that lama sudah tidak jumpa and ada juga yang lama tidak dengar khabar (i think i lose track with them) maybe because of the kesibukan masing2 in managing their own life. Some of them juga ada yang sudah berkahwin and ada juga sudah ada anak..ohhh how i miss them so much! :'(

LOVE ONE : I have a long distance relationship with this man for about 7 years now.. and yet i'm still feel unsure with this relationship. But deep down in my heart..i'm still searching for my calling.. what i mean my 'panggilan hidup'.. maybe i'm not trying very hard to find my life partner..and mungkin juga i have to blame myself for not giving myself the time to love and be love by other man. There are times when i've falling in love with someone and it's a bit struggling juga when the moment i starts to give my heart to other man but then he rejects me. and after all..cinta mana boleh dipaksa right?.. so i let my feelings gone with keeping my life busy doing my work and my pelayanan..

MYSELF : The good news is..day by day..i am growing..mentally, physically and spiritually...the bad news is.. i fail to give myself a time to discover the beauty in myself because i'm busy with my pelayanan in my church. That's makes me feel and look old nowadays, very old fashion lady, and muka pun nampak selalu tegang and stressfull..that's maybe the reason why all the guys out there tiada yang tertarik dengan saya..hrmmm

Ohh well...the reality now is..life must goes on.. i have to survived in this world with full of surprise.

Till then friends..till we meet again on my next post ya..God Bless!

With Love,

bbie

I'm Back!

I'm back! Yess..i'm back to the world of blogging!... do wait for my next post.... :)))

LORD, HAVE MERCY ON US....

Advent..

Hai everyone..It's 3rd week of advent..how's your preparation in this coming Christmas?? I believe each one of you have your own plan on this coming Christmas isn't it?.. Above are some pictures of me during our caroling time hehe... so enjoyable and meaningfull.. Hope that your day are not wasted just like that ..Take some time to share the joy of this coming Christmas not only with your love ones but also with others around you.. Have a blessed advent.. Happy coming Christmas...(n_n) hohoho~

Random thought

Hello readers.. So many things happen lately... And a bit worried for what will be happen next.. I still couldn't believe it. GOD, please guide them so that they can pleased you humblely rather than pleased for their own desire... (adeh...pening kepala ni...)

I'm Happy for them..

How wonderfull i felt when i know they are happy with their life now..even both of you are not telling me anything, but i believe they are trully happy because it shown from their smiles.. Congratulations my dear friend, and God bless both of you..

JOHN & JEZABEL on their wedding day..

nice shot isn't it?.. :)

nice.. :) sorry john & jez.. i took this pic from your fb album.. jan mare ye.. hehehe

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MILFORD & MELISSA engagement day..

nice deco! i like!!

nie cake punya deco pun cantikk nie..

at last u engaged juga kan milford?? hehe

Love Letter From God

God love us very much for He had sacrifice His only child for us..

"I offer you more than your earthly father ever could." Matthew 7:11

"If you seek Me with all your heart, you will find me.." Deuteronomy 4:29

"When you are brokenhearted, I Am close to you." Psalm 34:18

"I gave p everything I loved that I might gain your love." Romans 8:31-32

Vice versa

When you starts to trust your friend and declare him/her as your bestfriend.. but then he/she seems took for granted on the relationship..what should you do??

Prayer

"Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart."

Listen to God carefully..what HE want to tell you

Fix your attention on God

you'll be changed from the inside out

Readily, Recognize what HE wants from you

and quickly Respond to it..

Roman 12:2

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Your eye is a Lamp

Lighting up your whole body

if you Live wide-eyed in Wonder and Belief

you body fills up with the Light..

Luke 11:34

Everything - Tim Hughes

God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping

God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking

Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything

God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting

God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
You are everything

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
Be my everything

Slow

Some of my friends said i am 'blur' or 'slow'..bukan jalan lambat ahh..and i'm wondered.. is it true?? maybe because i asked them questions yang teda-teda kali..adui..sometimes i feel hurt when they laugh at me after i said or asked something weired to them..but then i try not to think it too much....because later on, i am the one who makan hati sendiri-sendiri..bah, below are some of my 'bonus' question where make them laugh..(duui gia..kesian juga saya ni kan...haha...)

This morning during breakfast:
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Me: Dwayne..pernahkah orang order nescafe tidak campur susu??

Dwayne : Huhh?! (he showed me his blur face) Nescafe O ka maksud kau? then he start to smile..

Me: **Blur** Kenapa?? (i mean why he's smiling)

Colette+Dwayne+Val : All of them ketawa at me...

Me: Odoi...baru tersedar yang saya sudah silap tanya..(hahahhah...malu oh....)

Praise Lord!

Thanks God for you are recovering ninie..Please don''t stop praying and everything happen for a reason right?? Love you so much buddy! (T_T)

Blind Man Wandering

Is there a world for me?
Is there a time to be free?
When will I know that I have reached the point?
Where we are one? Is it all or none?

Lord do I make you cry?
How do I live before I die?
Where is my heart, what will I love?
What will I follow? When everything is gone?

When will I find my chance?
I want to celebrate and dance.
When will I know that I have reached the point?
Where we are one? Is it all or none?

Lord do I make you cry?
How do I live before I die?
Where is my heart, what will I love?
What will I follow? When everything is gone?

You love me, why God
You love me, why God do you love me?
Ive been nothing but a blind man wandering

You love me, why God
You love me, why God do you love me?
Ive been nothing but a blind man (3x) wandering

Interview

Today is my tiring day..and a bit sleepy as well (yang petang suda). Amazingly i manage to woke up early this morning..Mmm it's around 4.30 am .. I'm going to UMS today because I am attending an interview there..[i plan to find another job bah..penat btl kerja saya sekarang ni..anyone yang tau ada vacancy, inform me aah.. :)] . Overall, okay juga.. but I don't really confident to get the post. It's ok then yang penting i already done my best kan??

Oh ya! one thing I want to share for what the interviewer had asked me during the interview..:

Interviewer : Ok, pilih salah satu - "Kerja untuk Hidup or Hidup untuk Kerja?"
Me : Mmmm... (lama sa jawab..binggung sekejap bah hehehe) Then i asked them this.."Bole ka if tidak jawab?"

Interviewer : "Mesti jawab juga.."
Me: ......(matai-i'm dead) "Mmmm..." (then ada la saya jawab juga but saya lupa suda apa sa jawab..doi...)

Interviewer : Ok, another one.. pilih salah satu - "Makan untuk Hidup or Hidup untuk Makan?"
Me : (Nasib ni sa nda blurr) Then I answer confidently.. "Makan untuk Hidup!"
Interviewer : Anguk-anguk then tulis something di kertas with their timun face..

Huhu...Harap-harap dapat good news la...
pssst... enjoy the cartoon ya ;) Have a nice day everyone! Cheers!

Tips of the day : How to Save Money

Lets us save money not only for our own good but also for our loved ones, people around us and also our planet..Here are some tips for us... Cheers!

1. Spend Less

Make a phone call only at off-peak times. Try to use the office phone if possible (tapi jan ja salah guna la kan). Love to read novels/magazine? Borrow it at public library.. Thinking to buy a CD? Better pigi sewa..murah sikit...hehe. If you want to read a newspaper, i suggest you go for online news or maybe you can borrow from your friend :) mmm bukan kedekut aa..cuma berjimat

2. Establish a personal budget

Yes. This is a good one. There are many advantages when you have your own personal budget. Salah satunya ialah, you'll always get track on your spending.. and mendisiplinkan diri kita sendiri-because kita buat ni secara konsisten. Maybe you can create your personal budget for period of one month.

3. Buying in bulk

Totally true! Membeli secara pukal adalah lebih jimat.. :)

4. Make sure sale is a sale

Yup.. Jangan cepat terpengaruh dengan tulian yang terpampang tulisan SALE up to 70% etc.. Teliti betul2..

5. Buy used

I don't know whether kamu pernah dengar nie ayat-> Rembengan. Haa....kamu bole cuba beli barangan eg pakaian di kedai rembengan..tapi perkara ni tidak dapat di paksa la.. It depends on penerimaan sesorang tu.. Ada some people yang kurang gemar or tidak suka pergi ke tempat seperti ini.. Reason dorang, tempat ni tiada class/umphh/brand kunun.. But for me, i'm ok for it. Bukan semua barangan yang di jual di sana tiada brand tau..ada juga yang branded and ada lagi nampak masi baru..pandai2 la kita pilih2 maa..kan? So affordable..can you imagine i can buy two piece of casual long pants with RM10?! Tapi nasihat saya..before you use it, cucilah bersih2... :)

p/s: barangan lingerie di kecualikan dalam konteks ini..this one, we better beli yang baru punya la..hehe

6.Don't carry excessive debt

Amalkan sikap tidak suka berhutang. Bila tiada hutang, hati pun senang..

7.Save Money
You can try to save money in the small amount first.. Maybe RM2.00 a day or.. RM50.00 a month but it must be consistent okay?

8.Shop Wisely

Cuba beli barangan yang diperlukan sahaja.

9. Eat in rather than out
Makan di rumah adalah lebih baik..bukan sahaja dapat menjimatkan duit tetapi dapat makan masakan keluarga sendiri (which i believe lebih sedap sebab mereka masak penuh kasih sayang..hehe)

10.Use lessEg, tutup tenaga elektrik bila tidak di gunakan(this is good not only for saving our money but we help our planet and others too..betul ka tidak?..) And last but not least...maybe we can use less shampoo..or less soap..or less water ..

Bak kata pepatah...Berjimat itu adalah amalan mulia..So..marilah kita menjadi mulia! kiiihaaa!!

Have you ever feel this way?

GOD..

do you hear me?

for I couldn't bear this lonliness alone anymore!

"It's so lonely when you even don't know yourself.."

Is there any LIGHT for me?

When you LOSE something that you can't replace, When you LOVE someone but it goes to waste...could it be worse?

Forgot

"Bie..I miss you..." Heard this sentence so many times .. but still, i really don't understand what it's really means.. (Gosh...i forgot how was these feeling are...)

* I'm just a girl who need something that can complete my desire...Am I wrong to feel this way?.. *

Lucky

What a day!...So lucky to have these two kiwi and magic olive eye shadow, the colourful recycle bag, and two cute toner and moisturiser from Elianto! yay! Thanks again Elianto! hehe






p/s: I get this gift while I'm attending the make-up & grooming workshop(by the Elianto staff) this evening at Teratai ballroom...They explain how to use make up correctly and show the basic of doing make up and after that they gave some questions for us to answer...luckily, I manage to answer one of those questions! yippee...!! (n_n)