It's been awhile...this year is going to the end.. for about a year already i haven't write anything on this blog.. haha maybe i keep on wondering and dreaming what i want to write until at one point...it ends with nothing..i've been through so many things in life for this passed 3 years (after i've officially graduated).. the struggle, the pain, the happy moments, so and so..
Maybe some of you are wondering.. how's my life going on right?... ohh well, time passed by..tutup mata buka mata...it's already 27 years im in this world.. And i really thank God for still giving me the opportunity to see and feel His wonderful creation. And i thank God for He never stop giving me His marvelous blessings in my life..though sometimes life is not that easy to go through..but still He is always there for me.
Lets go a bit deeper about my life journey..
FAMILY : Praise God for now we are still together... my only and youngest sister tetet...just finished her diploma in Uitm..with good result..Next year on month of May will be her convocation day. While my 2nd brother mimik just graduated last month. My 1st brother adie is now working in a private company and my mum is still healthy like before (thank you Lord!).
FRIENDS : I've met and know so many beautiful creation of God which i called them friends. And yet ada yang datang dan pergi..and some of them still here with me..and there are some that lama sudah tidak jumpa and ada juga yang lama tidak dengar khabar (i think i lose track with them) maybe because of the kesibukan masing2 in managing their own life. Some of them juga ada yang sudah berkahwin and ada juga sudah ada anak..ohhh how i miss them so much! :'(
LOVE ONE : I have a long distance relationship with this man for about 7 years now.. and yet i'm still feel unsure with this relationship. But deep down in my heart..i'm still searching for my calling.. what i mean my 'panggilan hidup'.. maybe i'm not trying very hard to find my life partner..and mungkin juga i have to blame myself for not giving myself the time to love and be love by other man. There are times when i've falling in love with someone and it's a bit struggling juga when the moment i starts to give my heart to other man but then he rejects me. and after all..cinta mana boleh dipaksa right?.. so i let my feelings gone with keeping my life busy doing my work and my pelayanan..
MYSELF : The good news is..day by day..i am growing..mentally, physically and spiritually...the bad news is.. i fail to give myself a time to discover the beauty in myself because i'm busy with my pelayanan in my church. That's makes me feel and look old nowadays, very old fashion lady, and muka pun nampak selalu tegang and stressfull..that's maybe the reason why all the guys out there tiada yang tertarik dengan saya..hrmmm
Ohh well...the reality now is..life must goes on.. i have to survived in this world with full of surprise.
Till then friends..till we meet again on my next post ya..God Bless!