Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Hi..just want to answer this questions (i'm not tagged by anybody :)-i'm just copied it from somebody). harharhar...

1. Rate your life from 1-10 (1 being very miserable)
hmmm...5.5 i think..

2. Is your hair long or short?
Long hair..

3. Do you have many real friends?
No.. (-.-)

4. Name friends you last hung out with?

1. Ninie

2. Siah


4. Betclis


6. Adi



5. Do you love chicken? to eat isn't it? of course la..

6. Last three drinks you had?
half glass of milo, plain water and yoyo ais..hehe

7. Do you eat fish?
Not that often

8. Do people mispronounce or spell your name incorrectly?

9. Who was the last person you hugged?
hmm...can't really rememmber

10. Last guy you think about?
Err …

11. Any food that made you smile today?
Well, I guess I have to say no.

12. Name one thing you have in common with your friends?
We need more rest and study more harder..bcoz exzam is around d corner

13. Do you trust your friends?
Do they deserve it? It all depends

14. How old will you be in five years?
That’s 28. Still young mah..

15. Do you believe in love?
Yes, I do.

16. Except for family and friends, who are you in love with?
My close fren!

17. Do you honestly believe you have found the right guy/girl?

18. Are you someone’s best friend?
I think so. I have no doubt about it

19. Do you love music?
It’s a passion

20. Last song you listened to?
I can’t really remember ..

21. What’s the instrument you wish you were able to play?
Guitars, drums, gong, piano...

22. Who was the last person you talked to?
If in person it was my roomate.
23. Who was the last person to call you?

24. Would you consider yourself a worrier?
am i??...hehe...entah la

25. Do you consider yourself as a happy person?
i don't think so..

26. Do you believe in saving yourself for marriage?
Saving myself for marriage? What does that mean?

27. Last person that pissed you off?
aha! dia tau tue sepa dia..

28. From whom have you missed the most calls in the last 5 days?
I think that should be from my mum..

29. who’s the first person you call when you’re having a bad day?
My close friend Betclis.

30. Last person who made you laugh like crazy?
I can’t really recall but I guess it was niny...hehe

31. Who’s your greatest inspiration in life?
There’s a lot, really.

32. Are you a good guesser?
I hate guessing game. I guess that’s a no then.

33. Who was the last person to sing your current favorite song and what song?
My current favourite song ..? ala...nda tau eh..

34. Who makes you laugh the most?
I can’t really remember.

35. What have you been telling yourself lately?
Bie, STUDY...You have to study harder.

OMG! I answered all 35 questions!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

Eight Lies of a Mother..

I felt touched after reading this stories. So i decided to published it in this blog. Please take your time to read this. God bless..
1.The story story began when I was a child;
I was born as a son of a poor family. Even for eating, we often got lack of food. Whenever the time for eating, mother often gave me her portion of rice. While she was removing her rice into my bowl, she would say "Eat this rice, son. I'm not hungry". That was Mother's First Lie
2.When I was getting to grow up, the persevering mother gave her spare time for fishing in a river nearour house, she hoped that from the fishes she got, she could gave me a little bit nutritious food for my growth. After fishing, she would cook the fishes to be a fresh fish soup, which raised my appetite. While I was eating the soup, mother would sit beside me and eat the rest meat of fish, which was still on the bone of the fish I ate. My heart was touched when I saw it. I then used my chopstick and gave the other fish to her. But she immediately refused it and said "Eat this fish, son. I don't really like fish." That was Mother's Second Lie.
3.Then, when I was in Junior High School, to fund my study, mother went to an economic enterprise to bring some used-matches boxesthat would be stuck in. It gave her some money for covering our needs. As the winter came, I woke up from my sleep and looked at my mother who was still awoke, supported by a little candlelight and within her perseverance she continued the work of sticking some used-matches box. I said, "Mother, go to sleep, it's late, tomorrow morning you still have to go for work. " Mother smiled and said "Go to sleep, dear. I'm not tired." That was Mother's Third Lie.
4.At the time of final term, mother asked for a leave from her work in order to accompany me. While the daytime was coming and the heat of the sun was starting to shine, the strong and persevering mother waited for me under the heat of the sun's shine for several hours. As the bell rang, which indicated that the final exam had finished, mother immediately welcomed me and poured me a glass of tea that she had prepared before in a cold bottle. The very thick tea was not as thick as my mother's love, which was much thicker. Seeing my mother covering with perspiration, I at once gave her my glass and asked her to drink too. Mother said "Drink, son. I'm not thirsty!". That was Mother's Fourth Lie.
5.After the death of my father because of illness, my poor mother had to play her role as a single parent. By held on her former job, she had to fund our needs alone. Our family's life was more complicated. No days without sufferance. Seeing our family's condition that was getting worse, there was a nice uncle who lived near my house came to help us, either in a big problem and a small problem. Our other neighbors who lived next to us saw that our family's life wasso unfortunate, they often advised my mother to marry again. But mother, who was stubborn, didn't care to their advice, she said "I don't need love." That was Mother's Fifth Lie.
6.After I had finished my study and then got a job, it was the time for my old mother to retire. But she didn't want to; she was sincere to go to the marketplace everymorning, just to sell some vegetable for fulfilling her needs. I, who worked in the other city, often sent her some money to help her in fulfilling her needs, but she was stubborn for not accepting the money. She even sent the money back to me. She said "I have enough money." That was Mother's Sixth Lie.
7.After graduated from Bachelor Degree, I then continued my study to Master Degree. I took the degree, which was funded by a company through a scholarshipprogram, from a famous University in America . I finally worked in the company. Within a quite high salary, I intended to take my mother to enjoy her life in America . But my lovely mother didn't want to bother her son, she said to me "I'm not used to." That was Mother's Seventh Lie.
8.After entering her old age, mother got a flank cancer and had to be hospitalized. I, who lived in miles away and across the ocean, directly went home to visit my dearest mother. She lied down in weakness on her bed after having an operation. Mother, who looked so old, was staring at me in deep yearn. She tried to spread her smile on her face; even it looked so stiff because of the disease she held out. It was clear enough to see how the disease broke my mother's body, thus she looked so weak and thin. I stared at my mother within tears flowing on my face. My heart was hurt, so hurt, seeing my mother on that condition. But mother, with her strength, said "Don't cry, my dear. I'm not in pain." That was Mother's Eight Lie
After saying her eighth lie, She closed her eyes forever!

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

That's what Friends are for..

your sentiment is ur love,
your love is ur heart,
your heart is ur spouse,
your spouse is ur future,
your future is ur destiny,
your destiny is ambition,
your ambition is ur aspiration,
your aspiration is ur motivation,
your motivation is ur believe,
your believe is ur peace,
your peace is ur target,
your target is heaven,
heaven is like hell without FRIENDS.

Monday, September 8, 2008

Nukilanku buatmu..

Ketika pertama kali aku bertemu denganmu..
Hati terasa tergerak oleh sesuatu
Cuba mengimbas kembali dimana pernah bertemu
Namun sukar untukku ketemu
Hati dan rasa tidak pernah puas untuk mencari sesuatu
Sesuatu yang bagiku..
Telah menyentuh pintu hatiku
Lirikan matamu
Sungguh menusuk kalbuku
dan..seluruh jiwa dan ragaku
mungkin…kau tidak pernah tahu
Sejauh mana ombak rinduku
Sentiasa bermain dikotak mindaku
Inginku cuba untuk melupaimu
Namun semakin kuat ia melekat didalam diriku
Mengapa kamu tidak memperkatakan sesuatu
Agar bisa menenangkan gelora hatiku
yang kini semakin sukar untukku…
Mengapa berbisu?
Salahkah aku untuk mencintaimu?
Cubalah katakan sesuatu..
Kerna aku tidak ingin tertipu
tertipu dengan segala sandiwaramu
diriku tidak pernah terukir didalam hatimu,
janganlah pernah untuk mempersendakanku
kerna..hati dan rasa mudah terluka
adalah dua insan yang berbeza
namun aku percaya
kita mempunyai suatu perasaan yang serupa
jauh di lubuk hatiku
inginku luah..namun lidahku kelu
namun naluriku
berbisik, hanya tinggal tunggu
masa dan waktu..
nukilan ,
p/s: hehe...sorry guys...this poem is written in Malay..
really meaningful for me..because i wrote it by myself...

When your Best Friend become a stranger..

Have you ever experience this situation before?? I believe you have. Me too have the same experience.. hmm... I wonder why...and how it happen? Maybe, it's just a part of our life..But then, i was such a bad and sad feeling..isn't it?

Sharing secret, gossiping and laughing together, hang out in the middle of the night, studying the other words, all together (it seems like where she/he go, you also there)..and...the whole world knew that both of you were best friend.

But then, because of certain circumstances, suddenly she/he is not like before.. Why??

I felt so terrible when i first experience this. And i thought that, it probably happened because of me. Maybe it because of the ego..or maybe the jealousy..

Well..maybe it is just like that..kan?
People come..people go..following their own destiny..

Monday, September 1, 2008

For the broken heart, stressed mind & aching soul..

Life never seem right
most of the time
but taking time to make
a difference everyday
is something
you ought
to do
i am not a perfectionistn
or do i an optimist
but that doesnt
stop me from
have a good sleep
have a good meal
have a good laugh
you'll see what it really means
when life is not treating you well
remember to please yourself
before you please others(",)
taken from:
Gilda Sweet Smiling

So tired..huh.. tired for everything.. I'm damn tired! Last night i've a fight with a friend of mine betclis..(again..) As usuall, he advice me..bla..bla..bla.. I've remembered what he said to me for this few months of his favourite question:

Betclis: "bbey, have you already plan your study?"
me: "emm..uhh..not yet.."
* it goes on until yesterday...hehe... I know he is right. Planning is important in our life. Without good planning, we might be lost our direction and we will be having trouble in managing our, i want to say thank you to you Betclis for keeping reminding me and still being such a considerate friend of mine..

Pilgrim by Enya

Pilgrim, how you journey
on the road you chose
to find out why the winds die
and where the stories go.
All days come from one day
that much you must know,
you cannot change what's over
but only where you go.
One way leads to diamonds,
one way leads to gold,
another leads you only
to everything you're told.
In your heart you wonder
which of these is true;
the road that leads to nowhere,
the road that leads to you.
Will you find the answer
in all you say and do?
Will you find the answer
in you?
Each heart is a pilgrim,
each one wants to know
the reason why the winds die
and where the stories go.
Pilgrim, in your journey
you may travel far,
for prilgrim it's a long way
to find out who you are...
Pilgrim, it's a long way
to find out who you are...
Pilgrim, it's a long way
to find out who you are...


This morning, i woke up a little bit late eventhough i sleep early last night.. I'm alone in my room. Niny was having her trip to Kuala Lumpur with her sister, kobie since Saturday last week. There are some things that i think of this morning. In the other words, a reflection about my past life.. Suddently i think about my mom, my late father, my friends.. and I don't know why..maybe, i miss those memory with them..

Merdeka Day

Happy Merdeka to all..
I know today is the 1st day of September. But then i think it's not too late for me to say it isn't it? This year i'm celebrating my Merdeka Day with Nursiah and my brother, Andy. Actually, last few days i'm so busy with my 1st business. I've opened my business with my partner, Nursiah and the business that we've opened that night (30th August) is just a simple one.. We were having our stall at Uitm gymnassium and the things that we've sold are:

'Merdeka Egg'

+'Jeruk Mangga'





' Some Games'

it's a tiring day for me becuse i have two big event happened that day.. On the afternoon i have my AIS Common Test and u know what?.. i couldn't do it my best...huhu... Actually, it is only a simple questions but still i cannot do it..maybe, because of my last minute study( a lesson for my mistake!) and of course, the second one is about my business.. Thank God my brother Andy willing to help us.. If not, i couldn't imagine how would it be!

We've closed our stall at about 12.35am..And that night, after we've reach hostel, both of us fall asleep until morning...

Now i know...having a business is not that much to much to think of..but then, this is my best experience that i will never forget..

(' ,')hehe..