Like a "Bangkai Hidup"..

I can't sleep..so i decided to write something in my post..Now i feel like a "bangkai hidup".. no GOAL, no DREAMS, no....nothing! It is like>> i'm following the flow..Going somewhere..that i didn't really know and let others decide it for me..i feel so blur( in the other words, blank! empty! and zero!)..kenapa tu aaa??