When i was 16, I met this guy and I thought I was in love with him. I keep my feeling without his knowing. On that time, it's hard for me to communicate and to get closer to him because there are still lack of communication tool like a handphone etc.. So the only thing i can do is to daydreaming about him.
End of year 2003, i am waiting for my SPM result. While waiting for my result, i've decided to work as a cashier near my hometown. It was my 1st job. For me, it was an interesting experience because from there i have learn many new things that i never been thought in school, meet new friends..
For telling you the truth, i 've buy my cellelular using my 1st month of my sallary and what is more interesting i bought it on February 14, 2004. I'm so damn excited and on that same day, i finally message this guy. He reply me and we become friends.
After 3 months working as a cashier, i quit. I further my study at Labuan Matriculation as accounting student. i'm still keep in touch with him but we still remain friends.
June 2005, i've completed my study. But, sad to know, i've failed to further my study as a degree holder. Then i start again from the beginning. I enter to a local university. I'm still keep in touch with him and still become good friends. I have kept and brought this feeling for many years now and of course it is now hard for me to ease his name from my heart. There are times i try to contact him but most of the time he don't response me. I feel so depressed..and it goes on and on..
Until one night, i finally decided to tell him about my feeling. At first he refuse to answer my call but then he finally answer it. And... there the stories goes. I HAVE CONFESSED my feeling and guess what?? HE REJECTED ME. He says that, he is not ready for this relationship and he want me to concerntrate with my study..haha...pity me kan..
It's hard to accept it when i 1st heard what he had just said. But..there is a relief i felt inside my heart..
Time past by..and when I'm thinking back about this, I just smile and laughing myself and of course wondering how can i be such silly girl waiting for that guy??! I HAVE LEARN MY LESSON.
So...the moral of this story..Never give your heart without knowing his/her feeling to you. Belakang hari, sendiri susah..sendiri yang sakit hati nie..haha..So what do u think? is it just a little crush??