Is it just a 'little crush'?

When i was 16, I met this guy and I thought I was in love with him. I keep my feeling without his knowing. On that time, it's hard for me to communicate and to get closer to him because there are still lack of communication tool like a handphone etc.. So the only thing i can do is to daydreaming about him.

End of year 2003, i am waiting for my SPM result. While waiting for my result, i've decided to work as a cashier near my hometown. It was my 1st job. For me, it was an interesting experience because from there i have learn many new things that i never been thought in school, meet new friends..

For telling you the truth, i 've buy my cellelular using my 1st month of my sallary and what is more interesting i bought it on February 14, 2004. I'm so damn excited and on that same day, i finally message this guy. He reply me and we become friends.

After 3 months working as a cashier, i quit. I further my study at Labuan Matriculation as accounting student. i'm still keep in touch with him but we still remain friends.

June 2005, i've completed my study. But, sad to know, i've failed to further my study as a degree holder. Then i start again from the beginning. I enter to a local university. I'm still keep in touch with him and still become good friends. I have kept and brought this feeling for many years now and of course it is now hard for me to ease his name from my heart. There are times i try to contact him but most of the time he don't response me. I feel so depressed..and it goes on and on..

Until one night, i finally decided to tell him about my feeling. At first he refuse to answer my call but then he finally answer it. And... there the stories goes. I HAVE CONFESSED my feeling and guess what?? HE REJECTED ME. He says that, he is not ready for this relationship and he want me to concerntrate with my study..haha...pity me kan..

It's hard to accept it when i 1st heard what he had just said. But..there is a relief i felt inside my heart..

Time past by..and when I'm thinking back about this, I just smile and laughing myself and of course wondering how can i be such silly girl waiting for that guy??! I HAVE LEARN MY LESSON.

So...the moral of this story..Never give your heart without knowing his/her feeling to you. Belakang hari, sendiri susah..sendiri yang sakit hati nie..haha..So what do u think? is it just a little crush??

Lazy Me..

today is my lazy day..

didn't want to do anything

i want to sleep, i want to eat haha..

seems like i will soon become like a zombie ehh..

watever..

General Knowledge

Do you know what is the meaning of bin and binti?

Bin>> Born In Name of..

Binti/binte>> Born In The Name of Eve..

Gee...I just know this last week from my uncle...Hehe

Mahua Waterfall,Tambunan

so beautiful..

the view of the waterfall from far

the closer view..

Helo guys! Last week I went to camping with my mum, sister and my Kampung's(Village) Team..It was so awsome!

22th Nov

9.30am-11.45am

it took about 2 hours from home to reach Tambunan. I felt a little bit tired and dizzy maybe because i didn't get enough sleep the day before. But, it didn't stop me from having fun there..hehe. After we reach Mahua, we unpack our stuff. We took our lunch by sharing our foods to others. (we bring our food earlier from home)

around 2pm

actually it was rain just when we reach Mahua. A little bit sad because we think that we can't go to the waterfall..but thank God the rain was not heavy..we at last reach the waterfall after waiting at about an hour for the rain to stop..

the walk before reaching the Mahua Waterfall

cousins, friends..

the water was so cold and pure! i felt so calm..

my sister and me..

with my mum...hehe

and...cousins...

we all are enjoying ourselves in this trip..glad to reach here..

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Today

This is the day..

that the Lord has made..

for me to reflect

about myself...

May all be blessed today..Amen.

"My thoughts are not your thoughts,

nor are your way My ways"

Isaiah 55:8

Dear Lord..

I believe everything happens for reason.

Teach me to be more passion and try to be more understand.

Amen.

If God doesn't give us what we ask for,

we can be sure that He has something for better.

Somebody....HELP!

hi again.

huh..5 more days to my exzam.. This is the first time i felt so damn unprepared! Whoa! somebody...i need help now! i don't know what to do.. and i have a bad instinct but then i really hope that it will NOT happen.

almost all of my tests and quizes i've failed.(yesh...that's true) huhuhuhu...tulung... i really need help!!