Rhythm of My Soul

2011-09-03T22:10:00.000+08:00

LORD, HAVE MERCY ON US....

Advent..

2010-12-15T14:21:00.004+08:00

Hai everyone..It's 3rd week of advent..how's your preparation in this coming Christmas?? I believe each one of you have your own plan on this coming Christmas isn't it?.. Above are some pictures of me during our caroling time hehe... so enjoyable and meaningfull.. Hope that your day are not wasted just like that ..Take some time to share the joy of this coming Christmas not only with your love ones but also with others around you.. Have a blessed advent.. Happy coming Christmas...(n_n) hohoho~

Random thought

2010-11-23T19:19:00.003+08:00

Hello readers.. So many things happen lately... And a bit worried for what will be happen next.. I still couldn't believe it. GOD, please guide them so that they can pleased you humblely rather than pleased for their own desire... (adeh...pening kepala ni...)

I'm Happy for them..

2010-11-17T14:15:00.009+08:00

How wonderfull i felt when i know they are happy with their life now..even both of you are not telling me anything, but i believe they are trully happy because it shown from their smiles.. Congratulations my dear friend, and God bless both of you..

JOHN & JEZABEL on their wedding day..

nice shot isn't it?.. :)

nice.. :) sorry john & jez.. i took this pic from your fb album.. jan mare ye.. hehehe

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MILFORD & MELISSA engagement day..

nice deco! i like!!

nie cake punya deco pun cantikk nie..

at last u engaged juga kan milford?? hehe

Love Letter From God

2010-11-09T22:53:00.002+08:00

God love us very much for He had sacrifice His only child for us..

"I offer you more than your earthly father ever could." Matthew 7:11

"If you seek Me with all your heart, you will find me.." Deuteronomy 4:29

"When you are brokenhearted, I Am close to you." Psalm 34:18

"I gave p everything I loved that I might gain your love." Romans 8:31-32

Vice versa

2010-10-28T19:59:00.003+08:00

When you starts to trust your friend and declare him/her as your bestfriend.. but then he/she seems took for granted on the relationship..what should you do??

Prayer

2010-10-25T21:50:00.005+08:00

"Prayer is not asking. It is a longing of the soul. It is daily admission of one's weakness. It is better in prayer to have a heart without words than words without a heart."

Listen to God carefully..what HE want to tell you

2010-10-23T21:12:00.003+08:00

Fix your attention on God

you'll be changed from the inside out

Readily, Recognize what HE wants from you

and quickly Respond to it..

Roman 12:2

Your eye is a Lamp

Lighting up your whole body

if you Live wide-eyed in Wonder and Belief

you body fills up with the Light..

Luke 11:34

Everything - Tim Hughes

2010-10-23T12:39:00.004+08:00

God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping

God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking

Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything

God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting

God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
You are everything

Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
Be my everything

Slow

2010-10-23T00:41:00.003+08:00

Some of my friends said i am 'blur' or 'slow'..bukan jalan lambat ahh..and i'm wondered.. is it true?? maybe because i asked them questions yang teda-teda kali..adui..sometimes i feel hurt when they laugh at me after i said or asked something weired to them..but then i try not to think it too much....because later on, i am the one who makan hati sendiri-sendiri..bah, below are some of my 'bonus' question where make them laugh..(duui gia..kesian juga saya ni kan...haha...)

This morning during breakfast:
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Me: Dwayne..pernahkah orang order nescafe tidak campur susu??

Dwayne : Huhh?! (he showed me his blur face) Nescafe O ka maksud kau? then he start to smile..

Me: **Blur** Kenapa?? (i mean why he's smiling)

Colette+Dwayne+Val : All of them ketawa at me...

Me: Odoi...baru tersedar yang saya sudah silap tanya..(hahahhah...malu oh....)

Praise Lord!

2010-10-21T20:09:00.002+08:00

Thanks God for you are recovering ninie..Please don''t stop praying and everything happen for a reason right?? Love you so much buddy! (T_T)

Blind Man Wandering

2010-10-10T14:51:00.003+08:00

Is there a world for me?
Is there a time to be free?
When will I know that I have reached the point?
Where we are one? Is it all or none?

Lord do I make you cry?
How do I live before I die?
Where is my heart, what will I love?
What will I follow? When everything is gone?

When will I find my chance?
I want to celebrate and dance.
When will I know that I have reached the point?
Where we are one? Is it all or none?

Lord do I make you cry?
How do I live before I die?
Where is my heart, what will I love?
What will I follow? When everything is gone?

You love me, why God
You love me, why God do you love me?
Ive been nothing but a blind man wandering

You love me, why God
You love me, why God do you love me?
Ive been nothing but a blind man (3x) wandering

Interview

2010-10-08T01:03:00.012+08:00

Today is my tiring day..and a bit sleepy as well (yang petang suda). Amazingly i manage to woke up early this morning..Mmm it's around 4.30 am .. I'm going to UMS today because I am attending an interview there..[i plan to find another job bah..penat btl kerja saya sekarang ni..anyone yang tau ada vacancy, inform me aah.. :)] . Overall, okay juga.. but I don't really confident to get the post. It's ok then yang penting i already done my best kan??

Oh ya! one thing I want to share for what the interviewer had asked me during the interview..:

Interviewer : Ok, pilih salah satu - "Kerja untuk Hidup or Hidup untuk Kerja?"
Me : Mmmm... (lama sa jawab..binggung sekejap bah hehehe) Then i asked them this.."Bole ka if tidak jawab?"

Interviewer : "Mesti jawab juga.."
Me: ......(matai-i'm dead) "Mmmm..." (then ada la saya jawab juga but saya lupa suda apa sa jawab..doi...)

Interviewer : Ok, another one.. pilih salah satu - "Makan untuk Hidup or Hidup untuk Makan?"
Me : (Nasib ni sa nda blurr) Then I answer confidently.. "Makan untuk Hidup!"
Interviewer : Anguk-anguk then tulis something di kertas with their timun face..

Huhu...Harap-harap dapat good news la...
pssst... enjoy the cartoon ya ;) Have a nice day everyone! Cheers!

Tips of the day : How to Save Money

2010-10-03T20:37:00.007+08:00

Lets us save money not only for our own good but also for our loved ones, people around us and also our planet..Here are some tips for us... Cheers!

1. Spend Less

Make a phone call only at off-peak times. Try to use the office phone if possible (tapi jan ja salah guna la kan). Love to read novels/magazine? Borrow it at public library.. Thinking to buy a CD? Better pigi sewa..murah sikit...hehe. If you want to read a newspaper, i suggest you go for online news or maybe you can borrow from your friend :) mmm bukan kedekut aa..cuma berjimat

2. Establish a personal budget

Yes. This is a good one. There are many advantages when you have your own personal budget. Salah satunya ialah, you'll always get track on your spending.. and mendisiplinkan diri kita sendiri-because kita buat ni secara konsisten. Maybe you can create your personal budget for period of one month.

3. Buying in bulk

Totally true! Membeli secara pukal adalah lebih jimat.. :)

4. Make sure sale is a sale

Yup.. Jangan cepat terpengaruh dengan tulian yang terpampang tulisan SALE up to 70% etc.. Teliti betul2..

5. Buy used

I don't know whether kamu pernah dengar nie ayat-> Rembengan. Haa....kamu bole cuba beli barangan eg pakaian di kedai rembengan..tapi perkara ni tidak dapat di paksa la.. It depends on penerimaan sesorang tu.. Ada some people yang kurang gemar or tidak suka pergi ke tempat seperti ini.. Reason dorang, tempat ni tiada class/umphh/brand kunun.. But for me, i'm ok for it. Bukan semua barangan yang di jual di sana tiada brand tau..ada juga yang branded and ada lagi nampak masi baru..pandai2 la kita pilih2 maa..kan? So affordable..can you imagine i can buy two piece of casual long pants with RM10?! Tapi nasihat saya..before you use it, cucilah bersih2... :)

p/s: barangan lingerie di kecualikan dalam konteks ini..this one, we better beli yang baru punya la..hehe

6.Don't carry excessive debt

Amalkan sikap tidak suka berhutang. Bila tiada hutang, hati pun senang..

7.Save Money
You can try to save money in the small amount first.. Maybe RM2.00 a day or.. RM50.00 a month but it must be consistent okay?

8.Shop Wisely

Cuba beli barangan yang diperlukan sahaja.

9. Eat in rather than out
Makan di rumah adalah lebih baik..bukan sahaja dapat menjimatkan duit tetapi dapat makan masakan keluarga sendiri (which i believe lebih sedap sebab mereka masak penuh kasih sayang..hehe)

10.Use lessEg, tutup tenaga elektrik bila tidak di gunakan(this is good not only for saving our money but we help our planet and others too..betul ka tidak?..) And last but not least...maybe we can use less shampoo..or less soap..or less water ..

Bak kata pepatah...Berjimat itu adalah amalan mulia..So..marilah kita menjadi mulia! kiiihaaa!!

Have you ever feel this way?

2010-10-03T12:33:00.006+08:00

GOD..

do you hear me?

for I couldn't bear this lonliness alone anymore!

"It's so lonely when you even don't know yourself.."

Is there any LIGHT for me?

2010-10-03T07:54:00.003+08:00

When you LOSE something that you can't replace, When you LOVE someone but it goes to waste...could it be worse?

Forgot

2010-06-22T00:12:00.003+08:00

"Bie..I miss you..." Heard this sentence so many times .. but still, i really don't understand what it's really means.. (Gosh...i forgot how was these feeling are...)

* I'm just a girl who need something that can complete my desire...Am I wrong to feel this way?.. *

Lucky

2010-06-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

What a day!...So lucky to have these two kiwi and magic olive eye shadow, the colourful recycle bag, and two cute toner and moisturiser from Elianto! yay! Thanks again Elianto! hehe

p/s: I get this gift while I'm attending the make-up & grooming workshop(by the Elianto staff) this evening at Teratai ballroom...They explain how to use make up correctly and show the basic of doing make up and after that they gave some questions for us to answer...luckily, I manage to answer one of those questions! yippee...!! (n_n)

It's your birthday..

2010-06-20T11:51:00.002+08:00

It's your 34th birthday today my friend.. Hope that all your wishes come true.. I just want to tell you that how much i appreciate this relationship..eventhough..at this time being, we have something unsettle matter.. some sort like...miscommunication problem. Please feel free to meet me when you are ready to face this matter.. (Really wish you read this post... :( )

2010-06-11T02:39:00.000+08:00

I am waiting for miracle to happen!..

2010-05-28T20:44:00.006+08:00

I'm so proud of her...why? because she's so brave to take these steps(which i think not all people can do it) and i want to tell her that we will support her to reach her dreams..I wish and pray for her all the best on her future undertakings...congratulation again to you, sista!

2010-05-11T22:25:00.001+08:00

It's your 1oth anniversary today dad... May you rest in peace..

Bored

2010-04-17T14:59:00.002+08:00

It's saturday...i'm at home alone...my sister went out with her buddies while my mum with her own friends..and where's mine?? huhu..

Listening James Morrison song-Pieces don't fit anymore..How i hope i have the courage to do that..but sad to say, i don't even dare to choose that path.. I'm sorry 'soul..'

Life goes on...that's the only thing that i can say now...

2010-04-11T21:34:00.003+08:00

If you think wealthness is expensive, try illness!
Betul juga... hehe...(n_n)

Busy

2010-03-31T23:19:00.002+08:00

Hola all..

Am quite busy especially on this end of month+holy week season.. Will update this blog after all of these settle okay...dada...

Good Night all..

p/s: Tomorrow is Holy thursday...can't wait to sing! hehe..(^_^)

Worried

2010-03-14T00:34:00.005+08:00

I'm too worried until i cannot sleep..Gosh...where have he been???

Prodigal Son

2010-03-13T23:27:00.001+08:00

Father i've sin
Help me to find my way
Remember not my sins
Just let me hear you say

# I Forgive you...I love you..
You are mine, take my hands
Go in peace, sin no more
Beloved one

Father i've turned
My back and walk my way
Depended on my strength
And live life my own way

Father i've closed
My heart to those in need
Thought only of myself
A victim of my greed

You

2010-03-12T16:12:00.005+08:00

Just want to tell you that...

I'm not missing you but i'm thinking about you now..
Wondered how's your life going on now?..
Physically, we are so near...but why..??......huh..
I want to show you that what is exactly happen to my life now but, i don't know why each time i want and try to do that, the outcome is different and sometimes become worse.

And now, I don't know what to do.Can you tell me what should i do??

Keluh Kesah of the day

2010-03-12T15:53:00.003+08:00

Nowadays, I'm quite wondering about myself..What will I be in 5 to 10 years time.. Will I be married? Will I be single?..And at what stage I will stand on?.. I really don't know.. Even you, others or even the angels don't know..

And i'm also keep on thinking and try to find a clear and bigger picture where should i go now.. As i said from my previous post, i'm quite not really satisfied on my life now..(yupp..as i'm only a human...we never feel satisfied with our own need kan..same goes with me )

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Gosh...i really need to make a good decision now..

Confession part I

2010-03-12T15:51:00.000+08:00

To make a confession is not that easy.. Apalagi if it is berkaitan with heart and feelings. A confession is an action where we become our own self, being honest and sincere when we express those feelings. Making a confession may result two possibilities-good or bad.
On the good side, maybe the results might make us feel happy, comfortable, save and peace..but, if the results is bad, we feel sad(unhappy), alone...etc..

It's doen't matter what decision you want to make actually..what i mean whether you want to keep those feelings by your own self atau sebaliknya-to express it. Maybe, we have our own reason why we want to keep those feelings isn't? Mungkin keputusan yang kita buat itu adalah keputusan yang terbaik untuk semua. But, sudah tentu we have to bring and feel the pain lah kan..

But i remmember someone told me this dulu..sometimes there are times we have to telan(swallow), or faced the kesengsaraan to reach the good at the end. Umpama kita telan ubat when we are sick, memang pahit untuk di telan pada mulanya tapi the result, ia menyembuhkan kita..Maybe, itulah di namakan kehidupan kan??

Wishing you were here buddy..

2010-03-06T06:31:00.002+08:00

Wishing you were here buddy...like we used to shared all our stories, gossipping, laughing, and giggling in the middle of night before we sleep..i miss that moment.. boleh kah turn back the time balik???... (yaa....i know...surelly la cannot...)

I'm sorry, when you in trouble, i am not there to confort you..
I'm sorry, when you are happy, i'm not there to share the joy with you...
But...my prayer is always with you my friend..
hoping that you will be strong to faced the obtacles..

Buddy..
I'm just to tired...
maybe because...i'm not really enjoy with my life now...

Some lesson for us

2010-02-16T16:07:00.004+08:00

Last sunday, i decided to go out - trying to do something..di luar dari kebiasaan... i've went to church but this time, i went to the different places >> secred heart church.. and i found out that tidak banyak umat yang datang...Maybe, semua busy with Chinese New Year and Valentine Day kan?..

Actually,i want to share the sermon that i've heard that day.. so many good things, and nasihat the Fr. gave... i couldn't remember all what he had said except this..
He intro his sermon with this.."If we want to open a new enterprise,or if we are sick, or maybe if we want to begin a new life-married, we seek someone who can advise us about that particular matter, right?? Di pendekkan cerita, he means like this:

BEGIN NEW ENTERPRISE/BUSINESS=ADVISOR
SICK=DOCTOR
MARRY=FATHER(imam)
STUDENT=TEACHER/LECTURER

He maksudkan macam ni.. If kita sakit, kita mestilah jumpa doktor kan..supaya kita sembuh..If kita mau kahwin, pastinya we seek someone who can kasi sah perkahwinan kita kan?? and if we are a student, if we have problems regarding our assignments, of course la we seek our teacher/lecturer kan?? hehe

So..sama jugalah macam diri kita ni..sometimes, we need people to help us to go through this life together...we cannot always stand on our own feet maybe with reason we want to be independent ka or apa-apa sajalah reason kita. We have to search...seek...for help from somebody who is responsible or wise so that, kita tidak rasa terlalu terbeban, and we tidak terasa terlalu keseorangan..

Semua kita pastinya mempunyai banyak masalah...persoalan dalam hidup..dan kadang-kadang, we blame God because He give us pain, and sadness in our life.. But let us try to think this, if we don't have trouble, pain and sadness in life, do you think we will seek God??? Mungkin ada, tapi tidak semua...

Ada juga yang mungkin tidak percaya bahawa Tuhan sentiasa ada di sisi kita, ataupun yang lebih teruk lagi, tidak percaya bahawa Tuhan wujud atau tidak.. tapi apa yang saya percaya, Tuhan wujud, dan sentiasa ada di sisi kita semua..it's just...we can't really see it with our eyes..i mean..dari pandangan mata kasar kita.. "God uses his people to help his people.."

Maybe...He mengunakan orang-orang di sekeliling kita, maybe kawan rapat, untuk membantu kita...we never know..

My heart singing

2010-02-16T14:37:00.003+08:00

Hai, lately this song...this lyric always singing on my heart especially when i'm just wake up in the morning...so i decided to post it here, today.

Banyak perkara...
yang tak dapatku mengerti...
Mengapakah harus terjadi?....
didalam kehidupan ini..

Satu perkara
yangku simpan dalam hati..
Mengapakah harus terjadi?....
Tanpa Tuhan perduli...

Tuhan mengerti..
Tuhan perduli..
segala persoalan yang kita hadapi
tak akan pernah
di biarkanNYa
aku bergumul sendiri
sbab Tuhan mengerti...

p/s:i would like to dedicate this song to those who is now confused, and don't know what to do, which path they want to go, and have trouble/problems in life...

My...oh my..

2010-02-15T10:26:00.002+08:00

Hai readers..

I decided to post something on my blog today though i don't have any topic to write.. At first i want to change my blog layout but kesian betul nie i don't know how..ada sesiapa ka yg bole tulung sy nie???adui...hehe

hmmm...well..i'm just taking my breakfast tadi..sy bancuh teh tarik 3 in 1 Lipton( wangi and sedap ni..try la kalau nda percaya) makan 2 biji coklat Cadbury dari si Bet and mkn maruku ikan(beli dari Chin Chang S/B-my employer punya supplier..nyum2...kenyang jg la..

today, i have some plan in mind (yang mana suda balik-balik kena brought fwd ni...gara-gara tangguh-tangguh lor.haha).. hopefully hari ni i manage to complete it lah..hehe

my 1st task: wash my cloth..(huhu...T_T)

2nd: lipat my kain(matai...)

3rd: kemas my bilik(uuuwwwaaaaa....)

4th: masak for lunch

5th: print my mum's document

6th: plan scedule for my Sunday School(PMG) thing..

7th: sapu ruma...

8th: i want kasi mandi si skang(my cat) tp adui takut sy dia garu sy..hehe

>errmmm..cukup la tu kan utk hari ini...besok lg plan lain lah...hehe...bagus kalau dpt complete ni..dui~

bah, till then..nanti sy post lagi..sy buat housework sy dulu...wokey?..

Have a nice day everyone...

Chayo-Chayo bbey!!

I want..

2010-01-13T23:02:00.000+08:00

I want to feel that love again...

Like a "Bangkai Hidup"..

2009-12-22T00:29:00.000+08:00

I can't sleep..so i decided to write something in my post..Now i feel like a "bangkai hidup".. no GOAL, no DREAMS, no....nothing! It is like>> i'm following the flow..Going somewhere..that i didn't really know and let others decide it for me..i feel so blur( in the other words, blank! empty! and zero!)..kenapa tu aaa??

The Wish List..

2009-12-18T11:03:00.000+08:00

~Christmas is coming...and i believe most of us are busy with the preparation of the coming christmas..~

What is your wish list on this coming christmas?? i've been thought about these and took for a certain time what i wanted and wishes to have for this coming christmas. so...so many things in mind..new looks, new cloth, shoe,books..etc..

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The youth community from our church was organizing an ex-changing gift on this 25th Dec..so each of us was given a piece of paper and was asked to write 3 wish list that we wanted as a gift.. And i've wish these gifts :

1. A motivation or christianity book

2.Bag

3.Cloth

At first,I feel so excited for my wish list but then suddenly a friend of mine told me something..she say..

"Sharon, ko tau..si ^^^^ punya wish list..dia bilang dia mau..

1.Bible

2.Rosary

3.Buku-buku Doa

sebagai wish list dia..Saya ada juga suru dia wish lain, like seluar ka..baju ka..tapi dia tidak mau..."

I'm touched with it...It was a simple wishes but it make me realize something..i forget that there are something that is much and more valuable compare than what i had wishes.. May God bless him that had open my eyes again...

Is this the real me?...

2009-11-28T20:52:00.001+08:00

I feel so empty and like..something is not complete..Lately i am so damn busy with my job until one day i realize, i forget to spend the 24 hours that God had gave to me to my own self. I miss the time when i spent my time to the public library reading books the whole day alone..or spend few hours in the bookstore(even i am not planning to buy a book)..buying cloth=shopping.. hang out with my buddies..(i miss them!)..and of course, i want to feel the 'love' again..

it's hard for me to describe these feelings inside me..i just can't explain..

What's going on??

2009-09-22T12:08:00.000+08:00

huh....i'm waiting this person since morning...it has been few hours already i'm waiting here...(i mean in the cc) adui...i hate waiting!! Manalah ni urang ni still not show up...mau denda dia nie... sudahlah i sacrifice my time for him today..he seems like not to appreciate it...

Just an ordinary day

2009-09-09T13:52:00.000+08:00

Hello again my dear readers...

i'm just having my lunch . And suddenlly i feel to blog.. so taadaa..!! here i am... hehe... Have a blessed wednesday everyone...

Today

2009-09-04T16:30:00.000+08:00

Hello my dear readers....i miss to blog...huhu...but sad to say, i don't know what to write.. i mean, what should i post..

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it has been a month working in 'these' company.. actually i like my new job. The environment is good...and i meet few new friends which can be trusted to. I feel blessed to know and meet them..:)
But this doesn't mean that i had forgotten my old friends.. actually i miss them so much.. but because of our time limitation, we are not able to meet each other..wish that i can meet and hangout with them again like last time...miss u guys!!

Hello..

2009-08-07T13:46:00.000+08:00

Have a nice day everyone..Huhu~...

When everythings are not ok...

2009-07-15T12:33:00.000+08:00

yup...when everythings are not ok, just pretend ok...right??..

Today

2009-07-07T16:41:00.000+08:00

Today is Tuesday..
Today is the day I feel unwell..
Today is Raining..
Today I feel Empty..
Today I have no work to do (eventhough i'm in the office!)
Today i am nothing..
Gee...what the crap i've been writing...(i'm bored bah tis...dunno what to do)

On Risking

2009-07-07T16:34:00.000+08:00

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.

To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.

To reach out for another is to risk involvement.

To expose feelings is to risk exposing our true self.

To place your ideas, your dreams, before the crowd is to risk loss.

To love is to risk not being loved in return.

To live is to risk dying.

To hope is to risk despair.

To try at all is to risk failure.

But to risk, we must, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

The Man, the Woman who risks nothing does nothing -- has nothing -- is nothing.

Author Unknown

Submitted by ARareJewelNLA

Under Construction...

2009-07-02T16:07:00.000+08:00

Sorry guys...my blog is under construction now...
Wait for my new layout okay...:)

~have a nice day~

The wedding

2009-07-01T10:58:00.000+08:00

This is my story for today…On the 6th of June my company has this big event - we have been responsible in organizing our client wedding in the Mamutik Island. It was awsome!! (mcm sy pun mau khwin ni....hehehehe)

p/s: so sorry it is not in the right order...:)

Dive Sipadan Island

2009-06-26T14:38:00.000+08:00

“My wife said she’ll leave me
if I go diving one more time..
I’m sure going to miss her”

DIVE SIPADAN ISLAND

hehe.. :)

Reading Time!!

2009-05-19T14:21:00.001+08:00

Yeppey..i just love books..Actually I’ve just finished reading these books: The 6 Important Decisions the Teen Make by Sean Covey. I think it is useful for us especially for the teen and the parents. The content is simple to be read and understand and what I like the most is that the way the author presents the book to the readers. Where he had included some cartoons, words of encouragement, true story from teenagers, etc.. for every one chapter. I suggest you to find and take a look for yourself ..

And now I am searching for this book- Eat, Pray and Love. Anyone who have read it, let me know how was it about okay..

Is beautiful = to slim??

2009-05-19T14:20:00.001+08:00

I suddenly thought about this matter when I met this one girl-my clique. Just when noon time where all the people are taking their lunch, this girl only eating some biscuit and a cup of hot drink. (and surprisingly, she ate like that everyday!)When I ask her why, she said that she still feel full. (oh, okay..) But I think she is lying. She seems like she is on her diet..strict diet..(gosh..) ß mcm sy ja nie…haha..but my reason not because of dieting ..it is because of I want to save some money…hehe

Some of us will have this mind-set where beautiful is equal to slim or in the other words, thin, or not over weighted. So as the circumstances, all the girls are trying to have a slim body because they believe that with having that, people will like at them (especially the guys..). Is that true??

I like today’s Sermon(17.05.09)

2009-05-19T14:17:00.001+08:00

Today’s sermon is about love and forgiveness and also about the Holy Spirit. I like the way he (FR.Jalius) present his sermon today because he give me the big and clear picture about the matter that he is talking about. He also had shared his own experience about the Holy Spirit. He said that everything that had happen to him is not happen because of coincidence.. Hmm…it’s quite difficult to explain and sometimes to believe about this until you’ve experience and discover the Holy Spirit by yourself. I do believe for I had experience it before.. “it was not you but the holy spirit had work inside you..” he says. And “each one of us have our own holy spirit.” Then, I suddenly remember this word-THE KINGDOM OF GOD IS INSIDE YOU..

O ya..about love and forgiveness..(p/s: I’ll comment about it later…k..)

Kanadaru Harvest Festival

2009-05-19T14:15:00.001+08:00

The Kanadaru (our village name) harvest festival has been conducted on the 10th of May 2009. Overall, the event was enjoyable. Almost my entire family member was involving with this festival. My responsibility is as a food ajk’s and my brother became the driver for my lil’ sis( bring her to saloon kan..but he sempat escape to dating lagitu..hehe).My mum and my lil’ sis are one of the most important person who had made the event became more meaningful..hehe Why I say so?.. This is because my mum had won for the cooking- the traditional food of KadazanDusun whilst my sis have been awarded as the 2nd Unduk Ngadau for year 2009. Cool kan?.. Below are some of the pictures have been token on that day…We all ended our day with full of tiredness…:)

It was your 9th anniversary dad..

2009-05-19T14:14:00.001+08:00

11th May 2000 will be always on our heart dad..That is the day when you left us forever.. May you rest in peace and please remember that you will always be my best father that I never had. Love and Miss you so much dad..

Teacher’s Day

2009-05-19T14:08:00.000+08:00

I think, it is not too late for me to wish to all the teacher's, HAPPY TEACHER’S DAY! Especially dedicated to all my teachers from I was first learn and know what is school all about until now..

My Kindergarten teacher..

Cikgu Monica

My Primary teacher..

Cikgu Doreen, Cikgu Hussein, Cikgu Sulaiman, Cikgu Suria, Cikgu Irwan, arwah Cikgu Fauziah, Cikgu Syarifah..

My Secondary teacher..

Cikgu Cyril, Cikgu Norsaliza, Cikgu 'S',Cikgu Hasalinda

My Matriculation teacher..

Miss Anita

My University teacher..

Mdm Adelina, Mdm Betcy, Mdm Roslida, Prof Wan Nasrudin, Mdm Norizan, Miss Del..

THANK YOU SO MUCH my dear teacher..!

Outside my Comfort Zone

2009-05-19T14:04:00.000+08:00

Prior the day(15.05.09)

Hello again my dear readers… :) At last I’ve decided to take another step ahead to sing (the Alleluia song) for my church on this coming Sunday mass. Before this I’ve rejected the call with so many reasons because I feel that I am not competent and not ready yet. Last night was my first time practice and sing in front of the crowd. And I felt so ‘nice’, ‘welcomed’, ‘enjoy’ and ‘motivated’. Even though it is just a short song, but it is not that easy you know.. ‘Sing from your heart and surely it (the voice) will flow naturally” –thank you to aunty Sula for the fantastic advice…

Well, pray for me so that I can sing naturally from my heart that day okay…hehe..

After the Mass(17.05.09)
Huhh! At last the nervous is over! I’ve made it..i mean for the 1st time of my life I sing the Alleluia song for the mass..another history of my life written today.. :)

Awww.....my tooth!

2009-04-29T09:19:00.000+08:00

what a day...my tooth is sooo ache!!!

Test Anxiety

2009-04-15T18:11:00.000+08:00

huhu~tomorrow is my test FAR350...adui..stress wo..stress because malas belajar..lepas tu, banyak sangat mau di baca and di hafal..why should we have those test and exzam??! tekanan nie..i don't know what to do...but at last tersangkut here blogging..

Something Weird

2009-04-13T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hola all!!...Just want to share these pictures to make you smile...hehe..

Kiasu??

2009-03-26T21:42:00.000+08:00

You know what?? actually i've heard several times my clique say this word-->KIASU. And they mark me as 'kiasu person'. At first, i just ignored it but then one day i suddenly feel unconfortable and curious to know what is the word mean. So now i know.. :( I FEEL SO BAD TO KNOW THIS.. huh..

Got this meaning from Wikipedia:

Kiasu is a Hokkien (a Chinese spoken variant) word that literally means 'fear of losing'. However its actual usage would imply a meaning more approaching that of "dog in a manger", and yet not quite. Examples of kiasu behaviour includes accumulating too much food on one's plate during a buffet lunch in case there is no more later, or joining a queue many days in advance just to ensure that one successfully gets hold of the limited free tickets to events, promotions and shows such as Singapore's annual National Day Parade.

This word is so widely used by Singaporeans and Malaysians that it is incorporated into their English vocabulary (in the form of Singlish). It is often used in describing the social attitudes of people, especially about South East Asian society and its values. Its widespread use is often because these attitudes are common—to not lose out in a highly competitive society (e.g. by above-cited examples), or to the extent of parents imposing heavy study labour on their children in their wish to make them at the very top of all other students. Growing up with this attitude, these students often become ambitious businesspeople, with the desire to be on top in wealth and prestige regardless of whether the most prestigious careers are aligned with their true capabilities.

It is often perceived as part of Ah Beng culture. The comic series Mr Kiasu depicts many examples of kiasu behaviour.

Earth Hour

2009-03-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

Lets support the EARTH HOUR 2009

by...turning our light for an hour..

this Saturday, 8.30 pm..

FORGIVENESS

2009-03-23T12:29:00.000+08:00

ONE OF THE HARDEST-AND MOST IMPORTANT-WAYS TO EXPRESS LOVE IS THROUGH FORGIVING OTHERS.

It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.

WILLIAM BLAKE

I do agree with the above quote..It is easier to forgive your enemy rather than your own friend.. Maybe because you are directly expose yourself to them, and they can hurt you so much.

Based from my experience, i have through so much difficulties because of myself-i don't want to learn to forgive the one who hurt me and also to my own self. As the circumstances, i became a quite and shy girl and have less friend and cannot accept any critism from anyone(sensitive).

At my teen time i have a BF and unfortunately our relationship do not as smooth as i hope for. We broke our relationship and at that time, i've create a new feeling towards him-i swore to myself, i will never forgive him. I bring the unforgiveness feeling for several years. Until, when this one day, i've met him again-on the messenger. We chat like we are friends and suddenly i realize that i've misunderstood towards him and he seems had forgave me as he said-"ah..cerita lama jangan di kenang".. Then, from that moment on, i felt so good because there is no burden anymore..and i feel free!

Now, there is no hatred i feel towards him. And, i would like to give my apology to him for what had happen. I am sorry.

Something to think of..

2009-03-09T11:39:00.000+08:00

You asked God to take away your habit

God said, No! It is not for me to take away,

but for you to give up..

You asked God to make you patient

God said, No! Patience is a product of triblation,

it isn't granted, it is learned..

You asked God to give your happinest

God said, No! I give you blessings, happinest is

up to you..

You asked God to spare your pain

God said, No! Suffering drows you from worldly cares and

bring you closer to me..

You asked God to make your spirit grow

God said, No! You must grow on your own!

But I will prune you to make you faithful..

You asked God for all the things that you might enjoy

God said, No! I will give you life, so that you might enjoy

all things..

You asked God to help you love others as much

as He loves you.. God said,

Finally, you have the idea!..(n-n)

p/s:i got this from my lil' sis magazine..nice one..hehe

Lent Talk

2009-03-02T22:26:00.001+08:00

Hi dear readers..

I want to share something about the talk(Lent Talk) which has been presented by Rev. Fr. Peter Abas justnow..There are many things that he have shared but these are some of it which i think is merely important..

As we all know(hmm..maybe not all of us know..maybe know but don't understand) Lent means it is time for us to start fasting. Fasting here is not only mean fasting on what we eat but it is also on what we behave, what we do, how we speak, how we live, what we think, etc.. in short, it is like we control our body and mind to do the good things not only for the good of ourself but also to the other people and especially to God..(p/s: this is only my opinion, there is no wrong or right okay..)

From the talk,

Fasting means we control what we eat, ( mean: stop eating before you feel full, fasting not to eat meat every Friday, etc..) , control the bad behaviour or our kebiasaan~the negative thing(Fr. said, kasi kurang...not totally stop..because not all people can stop immiedietly from doing that mah..kan..)

Fasting also means we beramal..Beramal here is not simply means we make donations in terms of monetary thing but it is actually more than that..as for example, we helps the needy, we spend some time to clean the church, we spend some time to the needy

There's an interesting story that Fr. Peter have shared tonight.. it is about an old lady who give him (Fr.Peter) an orange. And she(the old lady) ask him to sit and eat the orange together with her. And..suddenly that old lady say this to him.. "Fr., thank you because taking some of your time to eat together with me".. ~from here, moral of the story that we should learn is, to give some of our time to the people around us..

Another example is like this: let say, one of your family member is sick and she/he is in the hospital..kebiasaan yang kita buat, we'll bring fruits, flowers to give the sick person when we come to visit. But, actually all of that stuff is not really important..(because if ikut logik pun, bukan the sick person dapat makan smua pun..) what is more important is we come there and we spend some of our time with the sick person.. it is much more appreciated compare to all the other thing..(as from my experience, i'm really touched and like i want to cry when my friends took some of their time to come to visit me eventhough on that time they are really busy in preparing themselves for the final examination..)

Fasting also means~not to misuse the technology that we have(for example, use the handphone to spread the negative thing-picture yg tidak senonoh, etc...)

Finally, as for me, fasting is actually a good time for me to learn the meaning of being passion in everything i do, to become more closer to God, bersifat sederhana , and learn to love others unconditionally, to forgive people purely and also to ease the luka-luka batin yang kita alami..

God Bless all of you..Thanks for reading..

What If..

2009-02-28T21:44:00.000+08:00

What if I die tomorrow?
What if the dead lives again?
What if I become a guy?
What if I have the pure heart?
What if I climb the Everest?

What if I kill people?
What if I am blind?
What if I have no one?
What if I’ll never cry?
What if I’ll be left alone?

What if I never achieve my goal?
What if I fail in my life?
What if I am a handicapped?
What if no one loves me?
What if I am unsound mind?

What if I can predict the future?
What if I’m not going to heaven?
What if I can turn back the time?
What if there will be no death?
What if there will be no divorce?

What if there will be no sex?
What if all the man kind being the same?..

I feel Hurt

2009-02-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

Hi...

This evening I keep on thinking ,what i should post in this blog. Then my mind suddenly pop up to this matter.. But before i further to this matter, i want to remind to all readers, i just want to share it here and i have no intention to hurt anyone feelings..

Honestly to say, i really love her. But i don't know how to show these to her. I know she loves me too. But maybe, she afraid and shy to show it to me, and mum too.. She is young, beautiful.. I know that. That is why mum and i too worried about her. I hate to say this, i hate her boyfriend very much. I don't know why..it is just my bad instinct when i first meet him. I really hope he is not her life partner..

My lil' sister, how i hope that you will listen and understand what we are trying to say to you??.. but you are so stuborn..and now, i really don't know what to do..mau di marah, kena marah balik...mau diam, pun susah juga...entahlah...huhh...

All my sins, I now detest them..Never will I sin again..

2009-02-28T17:30:00.000+08:00

God of Mercy and Compassion

God of mercy and compassion,

look with pity upon me,

Father, letme call Thee Father,

'Tis Thy child returns to Thee

++ Jesus, Lord, I ask for mercy;

Let me not implore in vain;

All my sins, I now detest them,

Never will I sin again.

By my sins I have deserved

Death and endless misery,

Hell with all its pains and torments

And for all eternity.++

By my sins I have abandoned

Right and claim to heav'n above

Where the saints rejoice forever

in a boundless sea of love.++

See our Saviour, bleeding, dying,

On the cross of Calvary;

To that cross my sins have nail'd Him

Yet He bleeds and dies for me.++

Birthday Wishes

2009-02-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday sweet 18 to you, my beloved lil' sister..

Though you may be not realize..

How me, mum and your two big brothers are really care and love you..

you seems too busy with your boyfriend,friends, your sister angkat & abang angkat..

and..you.. hurt us...

you are grown up now my dear sister..

and i'm still worried about you..

eventhough you think that you can decide by your own now..

but still...you are still my little sister, you know..

i may be not as beautiful, as cool, as smart as you are hoping to have for a big sister ..

and i know, you even never want to share your dreams and your girly secret to me..

but still..i'm still love you..

i wish you all the best for your future undertakings..

may Lord always give you His blessings, His love, His protection for you...

lil' sister,

Happy Birthday...

we love you!

Suddenly thought about this..

2009-02-17T13:30:00.000+08:00

This few days i feel so weak...suddenly all my 'sakit' keluar.. Like i feel i'm near to death ni.. I don't know why.. So, i would like to say i love you to my mum, brothers and sister, friends..before it is too late..Thanks for everything..

Suratan atau Kebetulan?

2009-02-10T22:19:00.000+08:00

Sesuatu yang tak disangka
seringkali mendatangi kita
itukah suratan dalam kehidupan
atau sekadar satu kebetulan

Kita asyik membicarakan
persoalan hidup dan pilihan
serta kejujuran semakin berkurang
masih tiada bertemu jawapan

Walau kita dihadapkan
dengan pelbagai pilihan
mengapa sering terjadi
pilihan tak menepati
Hingga amat menakutkan
menghadapi masa depan
seolah telah terhapus
sebuah kehidupan yang kudus

Pertemuan sekali ini
bagi diri ku amat bererti
tetapi ku bimbang untuk menyatakan
bimbangkan berulang kesilapan

~I suddenly thought about him today..I just wish, I will never meet him again. As like the lyric written, 'hingga amat menakutkan,,menghadapi masa depan...'

Tired

2009-02-10T22:12:00.000+08:00

Just want to say i am too tired pressing the culculater everyday, watching the computer screen for hours, and doing the same task all the time..gosh..now i know it is not that easy..huhu..

Another memories..

2009-02-09T17:57:00.000+08:00

when i look at this picture again, how i miss those 3 years memories..

So sad, but life must goes on..

TIME (Where all the times gone?)

2009-02-06T13:45:00.000+08:00

Time is a created thing. To say "I don't have time" is to say "I don't want to."
LAO TZU, O Magazine, Jan. 2007

“~sigh~.. I don’t have enough time to do it..” .

I just heard this phrase (betul ka ni? Hehe..) from my boss this evening. And I decide to write in my blog. Do you have the same feeling or situations as my boss facing? As for me, I do ever face the same problem. One of it is when I was a student- where there are too many assignments, events such tests, quizzes or universities program that needs the student participation, etc..

Do you feel that you are using your time completely? For me, I will say NO. Why? Because I realize that I have wasting too much time doing nothing.. And, the two things that I most regret are when I’ve wait this guy for a long time and suddenly I just get his message – he don’t want me.. And I fail to say I LOVE YOU to my dad before he left us..

PERFECTIONIST

2009-02-06T13:12:00.000+08:00

What is perfectionist? Is it wrong to be perfectionist? Why perfectionist? Who is perfectionist? How to avoid from becoming perfectionist? What is the benefit and disadvantage for being perfectionist? What are the symptoms of being a perfectionist? All these questions suddenly appear when I thought about it. Do you a perfectionist person?

A friend of mine ever told me that I am a perfectionist person. And he/she sounds like being a perfectionist is not good for me. To me, there is no wrong or right answer for a person’s opinion. It actually all depends on the perceptions of the person itself. Some may agree, and some may disagree.

So, how about you? Are you a perfectionist person??

Depression

2009-02-06T13:03:00.000+08:00

Last few days I had watch this movie (sorry I forget the title.. but it doesn’t matter after all). These women had made her opinion about what is the meaning of depression. She says, “Depression comes from the stress feeling” or it also comes from “losing they loved one”..

So then, I realized something about myself. Deep down inside my heart says that..”Gee…I have faced this situation before..”. On that time I feel like there is no life for me and I feel everyone hates me. So as the circumstances, I decide to dislike myself (as the effect, I always get mood swings) and I start to punished myself. How? I’ve hurt myself-by injuring my both hand. I don’t feel that it is wrong after all because I thought that I am not hurting anybody. I never felt that it was hurt after all. Thus, it makes feel a little relief…I don’t know why.. I do ever thinking of killing suicide too. But, thank God for His love, I’ve been saved. I don’t know how to explain the feeling I’ve felt on that time and why but I just feel that He near to me and care for me..

Well, that’s my past stories and I realize that all the things I do on that time is not a good thing for me. I’ve change (I think so) but I know I’m not completely change.

How about you? Have you ever been in this situation before? or maybe..your friends? How do you facing it or helping your friend ?

i'm Tired..

2009-02-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

I am tired...really-really tired..to think all of this..I wonder why people seems so hard to accept me? Am i too ugly? am I too shy? am I too hard to understand? I feel lost. And I really don't know what to do..

Am i sick??

2009-02-01T22:45:00.002+08:00

this few days i feel so confuse...
there are times i feel like i want to scold someone
like i want to hit someone
and trying to find someones mistakes so that i can scold them
so many things i had imagined in my head
until i think i might be crazy
am i sick??

Give Up..

2009-01-27T14:48:00.000+08:00

i don't know what to do
i feel so empty
so lonely..hurt..
it seems like i want to give up..
and i'm too tired...
with all the drama..
i...
i am nothing
so...
just please go..go far from me..
just forget me...

Award

2009-01-24T15:32:00.000+08:00

The award's prerequisite

1.Copy badge 'Cute's 3blogger AWARD' di atas dan letakkan di blog anda. ( already...)
2.Link/ceritakan kembali siapa yg memberikan award nih. ( okeh! )
3.Setiap blogger mesti menyatakan 10 fakta/hobi diri sendiri sebelum memilih peserta award seterusnye...
( 5 only can ka?!... )
4.Anda harus memilih 10 blogger penerima award ini ( hmm.. )
5.Jgn lupa melawat blog 10 blogger penerima award ini bg memberitahu 'anda di tag'. ( ok boss )

ok..so...i have to cerita again lah kan..this award was been given to me by Ninie Jane..(thanks buddy)
and..below is 10 facts about me..

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1. I AM super sensetive person..my heart can break easily and takes some time to recover..
2. I am a simple person, can be so quite and hard to smile(sometimes..)
3. I like to make collections(novels)
4. I hate people who is pretending and dishonest...
5. I believe in God..
6. I am a slow learner but i try my best to learn..
7. I like words of inspirations and motivations
8. I can walk so fast...(especially when i'm in a hurry)
9. I'm hard to express my feelings(esp love) and easily to express my anger(hate,dislike,sad,unconfortable,lonely,and when i fail doing something)
10. I love my family so much...

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Next, i will give this award to this people>>
Sis Dawn, Bonny, PhyBie

Good Day vs. Bad Day

2009-01-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Today...i feel so happy...because my boss decided to increase my salary..(sikit jak...tapi sy bersyukur). And..some of my new friends in my office are now starts to shows their positive faces to me already.. Then, i meet my friend Siah, and we went to lunch together. (I really appreciate that moment you knw..) But suddenly...

I got this news and i feel so ashamed, down, unmotivated...

Huhhhh...what a day...but, apapun...Praise Lord..

Beauty Tips

2009-01-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

For attractive lips,
Speak words of kindness.

For lovely eyes,
Seek out the good in people.

For a slim figure,
Share the food with the hungry.

For beautiful hair,
Let a child run his or her fingers through it once a day.

For poise,
Walk with the knowledge that you will never walk alone.

People, even more than things, have to be restored,
Renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed.

Never throw anybody out.

The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears,
The figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.

The beauty of a woman must be seen from in her eyes because that is the doorway to her heart, the place where love resides..

-Sam Levenson

He knows..

2009-01-06T22:20:00.000+08:00

He knows everything..and you cannot hide it from Him. and, He's watching us, in what we do,what we see,what we feel. Maybe some of us didn't really believe even really care whether God is really exist in this world. MAY you are not one of them. Appreciate what we have and don't forget to give our thanks and praise for all the gifts that He have gave us...

May God Bless all of you..

Helo 2009...Bye 2008

2009-01-06T21:16:00.000+08:00

Hello my dear readers! it is the 6th day of the year 2009! i think i'm not too late to wish all of you, have a blessed New Year..Happy New Year everyone!!Hehe...

well, let's see my flash back for the whole year(2008)okay...

January
it's the month of my 22nd Birthday...I've got a surprise party(planned by Andius, niniut, gleat,siah, beat, rosse..thanks guys!)

February
For the 1st time i've went to Retret Penyembuhan Batin at Tambunan...it heals me.. really..

March-April
I'm busy with my assignment, presentations, quiz(s), test(s), and EXZAM..

May
I went through an operation to remove my Dermoid Cyst..
and, 2 weeks after that, i went to class for my holiday class called intersesi and again, sit for the exzam.

June
cuti-cuti kumpul lemak...hehe

July
it's kuliah time...for my 6th semester..niny,siah, and gleat punya birthday...

August
start to blogging...

September
we went to Borneo Paradise for 2 days and one night
and we celebrate my brother Andy punya birthday and exchange our gifts..

October
hmm...our busy month...kelangkabut to finished our D.I.A. Bulletine, having our big event-Family Day Sports Fiesta(i learn on how to make the askar camp), and preparing ourselves for the coming exzam..

November
went to Kuala Lumpur for Lawatan Sambil Belajar trip for 9 days and 8 nights..(if i'm not mistaken)

December
family gathering...

yup...thats all...
Now, i'm closing my year 2008 life and i keep it as my precious memory..(p/s: thanks for reading)

Family Gathering

2008-12-27T22:22:00.000+08:00

Helo readers...

Yups..on the 25th December we(the family of Monsibol's and Ligayus's) have invited all our relatives and friends to our Family Gathering at my uncle Victor house. On th same time we were actually planned a surprise party for my akung(grandpa) and ina(grandma) as for our appreciation for them..or in other words, to show some love..hehe
Below are some of the pictures on the party..

my akung and ina...

my mom with her brothers and sister

my aunties (ina's daughters)
from left, mummy obin, aunty luza, mummy Sarah and aunty Connie

bro mimik, me, mum, sis tetet and bro adie

at the back, aunty Doreen, cousin Valerie, Vanessa, uncle Victor
at the front little cousin Vivien

my most sporting aunty...Servie, uncle Charlie, Aaron
and between my akung and ina, Adele

from left(3rd row), uncle Johnny, aunty Rebecca, cousin Dido, kochit's bf(Alban) and kuyum
at the center of the row tetel, nani, kochit and pamela

my uncle Iluk(still single...)

from left, apui, obot, bibi, aunty Luza, uncle Kohing, elou..

from left, uncle Chandran, mama Sarah, bibil, sarah and kegan

cousins took picture together

We are the family of Monsibol and Ligayus

cousin and friends are having their moginum time

sister tetet with cousin nani

me with nenek Tamparuli and sis tetet
(love this picture very much!)

We were having so much fun that day...May God always bless our family...

the Best of Friends..

2008-12-27T22:11:00.000+08:00

The best of friends,
Can change a frown,
Into a smile,
when you feel down.

The best of friends,
Will understand,
Your little trials,
And lend a hand.

The best of friends,
Will always share,
Your secret dreams,
Because they care.

The best of friends,
Worth more than gold,
Give all the love,
A heart can hold.

especially dedicated to all my beloved friends...

(ninie, beat, gleat, siah, rose..thank u so much!)

Love you and miss you guys!

Been Tagged

2008-12-26T09:57:00.000+08:00

Good morning everyone...Hi Ninie..:) Tagged from u...hehe... at last baru buat(after several times u tagged me).
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RULES:
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Bold the statements that are true for you. Italicise the statements that you wish are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, tag 5 people to do the same test.
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I miss somebody right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I’m totally smart.
I’ve broken someone’s bones.
I’m paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I am a pretty good dancer
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I am not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment.
I’m obsessed with girls.
I’m obsessed with boys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I’m proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake’s slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can’t stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant pastime.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I’m an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I am an adrenaline junkie.
I love being happy.
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Ninie, finally i can done all ur tags :D
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# What do friends call you?
Bbey!
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# When is your birthday?
January 9
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# What are your favourite food?
All the spicy food(especially Tomyam) haha...
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# Are you a hard drinker?
I don't think so..
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# Where are you now?
Home, Penampang
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# Do you work now?
No.
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# What song you like to hear when the time you are so lonely?
the praise & worship songs
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# Favourite movie.
Many.
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# Provide some of your choice number?
5, 23
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# What is your perfume?
hmm...
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# Do you have other Friendster account?
I got one
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# Are you a party girl?
No
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# Is there someone mad at you? If yes, think why.
Probably, i have no idea..(i wonder why...biarlah...)
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# Name someone you like.
...
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# Who are your best friend?
them :D
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# A friend is..
someone that who understand you..
don't take you for granted..
been there not only in good times but also in your hardest time..
accept you as you are..

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# What is more important? Loved ones? or your friends?
Both
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# Do you slept with your contact lense?
Last time...hehe..
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# Are you in relationship now?
Noooo.....
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# Who was the last person you dated?
Him.
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# What is love for you.
Passion
Understanding
Family
Feeling
Unpredictable
Beautiful
Life
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# What makes you happy?
when something that i like happens to me
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# Introduce yourself. Tell us some words that they must know.
Unique. Unpredictable.
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# How about a message to your ex?
Have a nice day
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# Say something to your bf.
...
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# Dedication to your crush?
Sorry for everything
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# Dedication to your friends?
Thanks for the memories...
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# Tagging.
.Phy-bie
.Bonny

Checklist for Christmas

2008-12-06T00:26:00.000+08:00

hola again! i think i have to list down things that i should have(buy/do) for this christmas..

1. a white/black/purple wallet(really need it)

2. a pair of sandals & shoes

3. one nice and cute skirt

4. present for mum

5. present for bro adi, mimik and sis tetet

6. a few pieces of blause

7. cut my hair(maybe)

8. buy new bed sheet for me :)

9. Novels!

10. a Casio watch(maybe)

Christmas Carol

2008-12-06T00:04:00.000+08:00

Wee...i'm going out to house to house with my uncles, aunties, cousins and friends singing the advent and christmas songs.. Phew! How I miss this moment..On 3rd of December was our 1st christmas carol.hehe best juga eventhough there are a little bit crack during that night..haha..We actually sempat took pictures but..so sorry can't upload it at this moment..

'Perkhidmatan Cemerlang' Award

2008-12-05T18:22:00.001+08:00

Congratulation to my mum! At last her hard work been paid by this award. I know she deserve it. Well done mum! I'm proud to be your daughter..

I can see from her eyes, she is really happy. yalah.. it's not easy to receive that ba..thus, it also shows that people do appreciate what she(mom) had done for all this while. And..semangat ni..sempat lagi beli baju baru tau..hehe..

p/s:the ceremony will be on December 12 2008. Later i will enclose her picture k..

Unintended

2008-12-05T18:12:00.000+08:00

Halo readers! This lyrics and its rhythm really touching..huhu..it remains me about someone...

Muse-Unintended

You could be my unintended

Choice to live my life extended

You could be the one I’ll always love

You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions

You could be the one I’ll always love

I’ll be there as soon as I can

But I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged

All my dreams and all my balance

She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended

Choice to live my life extended

You should be the one I’ll always love

I’ll be there as soon as I can

But I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I’ll be there as soon as I can

But I’m busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you..

Is it just a 'little crush'?

2008-12-04T14:41:00.000+08:00

When i was 16, I met this guy and I thought I was in love with him. I keep my feeling without his knowing. On that time, it's hard for me to communicate and to get closer to him because there are still lack of communication tool like a handphone etc.. So the only thing i can do is to daydreaming about him.

End of year 2003, i am waiting for my SPM result. While waiting for my result, i've decided to work as a cashier near my hometown. It was my 1st job. For me, it was an interesting experience because from there i have learn many new things that i never been thought in school, meet new friends..

For telling you the truth, i 've buy my cellelular using my 1st month of my sallary and what is more interesting i bought it on February 14, 2004. I'm so damn excited and on that same day, i finally message this guy. He reply me and we become friends.

After 3 months working as a cashier, i quit. I further my study at Labuan Matriculation as accounting student. i'm still keep in touch with him but we still remain friends.

June 2005, i've completed my study. But, sad to know, i've failed to further my study as a degree holder. Then i start again from the beginning. I enter to a local university. I'm still keep in touch with him and still become good friends. I have kept and brought this feeling for many years now and of course it is now hard for me to ease his name from my heart. There are times i try to contact him but most of the time he don't response me. I feel so depressed..and it goes on and on..

Until one night, i finally decided to tell him about my feeling. At first he refuse to answer my call but then he finally answer it. And... there the stories goes. I HAVE CONFESSED my feeling and guess what?? HE REJECTED ME. He says that, he is not ready for this relationship and he want me to concerntrate with my study..haha...pity me kan..

It's hard to accept it when i 1st heard what he had just said. But..there is a relief i felt inside my heart..

Time past by..and when I'm thinking back about this, I just smile and laughing myself and of course wondering how can i be such silly girl waiting for that guy??! I HAVE LEARN MY LESSON.

So...the moral of this story..Never give your heart without knowing his/her feeling to you. Belakang hari, sendiri susah..sendiri yang sakit hati nie..haha..So what do u think? is it just a little crush??

Lazy Me..

2008-12-04T14:01:00.000+08:00

today is my lazy day..

didn't want to do anything

i want to sleep, i want to eat haha..

seems like i will soon become like a zombie ehh..

watever..

General Knowledge

2008-12-02T16:28:00.000+08:00

Do you know what is the meaning of bin and binti?

Bin>> Born In Name of..

Binti/binte>> Born In The Name of Eve..

Gee...I just know this last week from my uncle...Hehe

Mahua Waterfall,Tambunan

2008-11-30T20:49:00.000+08:00

so beautiful..

the view of the waterfall from far

the closer view..

Helo guys! Last week I went to camping with my mum, sister and my Kampung's(Village) Team..It was so awsome!

22th Nov

9.30am-11.45am

it took about 2 hours from home to reach Tambunan. I felt a little bit tired and dizzy maybe because i didn't get enough sleep the day before. But, it didn't stop me from having fun there..hehe. After we reach Mahua, we unpack our stuff. We took our lunch by sharing our foods to others. (we bring our food earlier from home)

around 2pm

actually it was rain just when we reach Mahua. A little bit sad because we think that we can't go to the waterfall..but thank God the rain was not heavy..we at last reach the waterfall after waiting at about an hour for the rain to stop..

the walk before reaching the Mahua Waterfall

cousins, friends..

the water was so cold and pure! i felt so calm..

my sister and me..

with my mum...hehe

and...cousins...

we all are enjoying ourselves in this trip..glad to reach here..

Today

2008-11-28T13:44:00.000+08:00

This is the day..

that the Lord has made..

for me to reflect

about myself...

May all be blessed today..Amen.

2008-10-24T16:48:00.000+08:00

"My thoughts are not your thoughts,

nor are your way My ways"

Isaiah 55:8

Dear Lord..

I believe everything happens for reason.

Teach me to be more passion and try to be more understand.

Amen.

If God doesn't give us what we ask for,

we can be sure that He has something for better.

Somebody....HELP!

2008-10-24T15:57:00.000+08:00

hi again.

huh..5 more days to my exzam.. This is the first time i felt so damn unprepared! Whoa! somebody...i need help now! i don't know what to do.. and i have a bad instinct but then i really hope that it will NOT happen.

almost all of my tests and quizes i've failed.(yesh...that's true) huhuhuhu...tulung... i really need help!!

Thank You

2008-10-24T15:34:00.000+08:00

hi...

i felt so sad when i meet her this morning.Maybe because today is the last day she teach us in this class. there are something in her eyes that its hard for me to discribe.. I know she is kind...I know she is care...but it's just me won't allow her to get closer to me...well...let just wait the time shows me everything.. Thank U for everything dearest teacher.. God bless..

it is just like that

2008-10-24T14:56:00.001+08:00

The people that I have lost…

And the people that had left me behind..

I will never forget them…

There are times i miss them

but then who will cares?

no one will understand…

no one might know..

People are too busy in handling themselves

And there I go

standing ,watching , and waiting for something

didn't know which path to go..

Bored

2008-10-21T19:38:00.000+08:00

Hi...

Right now, i'm sitting here in the library surfing the internet. Huh...i'm too tired...really...really tired... To many things to do..

TEST..TEST..TEST..!

That's make me tired actually... This week is the worst week for me... Can you imagine?...Only for yesterday, i have TWO TEST and you know what... i couldn't do it well.. huhu...

and then...i've just finished my Audit test just now... and again... my answer seems all rubbish! huh.. so tension...HELP..

and tomorrow is my MUET Exam-Speaking Test. Then the next day my Accounting Theory Test...Then on friday i have to submit my business plan already... whoa! what a week...

The Return to innocence by Enigma

2008-10-16T17:43:00.000+08:00

p/s: this song really touched my heart...huhu..

Love - Devotion

Feeling - Emotion

Don't be afraid to be weak

Don't be too proud to be strong

Just look into your heart my friend

That will be the return to yourself

The return to innocence

If you want, then start to laugh

If you must, then start to cry

Be yourself don't hide

Just believe in destiny

Don't care what people say

Just follow your own way

Don't give up and miss the chance

To return to innocence

That's not the beginning of the end

That's the return to yourself

The return to innocence

Don't care what people say

Follow just your own way

Don't give up, don't give up

To return, to return to innocence.

If you want then laugh

If you must then cry

Be yourself don't hide

Just believe in destiny.

that's the return to innocence...